The Bills Between Us
Poverty is a slow-walked demolition of the human spirit. Extreme poverty, not so slow. Those who have not experienced want at this level lack capacity to conceive and to empathize beyond a basic understanding of the meaning of words. Forced choices driven solely by financial considerations. Choosing between paying a power bill and traveling to see your children. Using baking soda to brush teeth, solve digestive ails, clean stains and laundry, and more- not because it works bu
Aug 165 min read
On The Bridge
So crazy, beat the strain. Too lazy, shake the gray. So as she willed the rain. So let me be defamed. Your redundancy stains. Tired of infantile claims. Like puppets on a string. Untangle you from me... So crazy, feel the hate. Yeah, I've got years to wait. I know it's not too late. Lending clean hands of fate. Rise from the dirt I'm in. Hide in another's skin. Stick black dress doll with pin. Your mouth takes on my grin... Time to call the doggies off. Tired of the shadowin'
Apr 256 min read
Truth, Aslan, And AlienJesus
I'm calling Bullshit on the whole "My Truth" thing. Beginning with my own "my Truth". Over the past 3-4 years, through all the therapy, all the counseling, all the recovery, all the doctors and assessments and diagnosis, all the darkness, all the void...I recall a lot of people talking to me about "my truth". About learning to speak my truth...to know it, see it, understand it, articulate it, defend it, and damn near deify it. Bladdidy blah blah... Here's the thing: I don't v
Apr 196 min read
Sooo...About AlienJesus...
"Bought a ticket for a runaway train, like a madman laughing at the rain... A little out of touch...a little insane...just easier than dealing with the pain." -from Runaway Train, by Soul Asylum Here's a few facts: approximately 5–12% of all hospital emergency department visits are related to mental health conditions, and 20-30% of these persons require hospitalization and extended intervention. I am a statistic. Between late summer and early fall of 2024, I experienced a se
Apr 46 min read
Transmutation: When Peter Got Out, Walked Upon, And Came Toward...
Transmutation. What is it? I've thrown it around as a solution in my writing. I've tossed the word about as though it solves things with a certain "2+2=4" efficiency. In short, Transmutation is changing one thing into another thing, entirely. To "transmute" something means to alter its nature. Changing a liquid into a solid. Taking ideas from notes to action. Transmutation allows us to change emotions or states of feeling into other things. On a vibrational, energetic level,
Mar 1315 min read
Mankind Isn't Damned, He Slumbers. And All Of Life Is But A Damned Dream.
"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation. From the desperate city you go into the desperate country... ...Unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind. There is no play in them, for this comes after work." --- from Walden Pond, by Henry David Thoreau Our beloved English word "damned" carries alot of weight. The very word itself is a curse. In English, it means "c
Feb 110 min read
Timeline: Beyond The Biblical Silo
" I climbed across the mountaintops, Swam all across the ocean blue. I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules, but baby, I broke them all for you. But these stories don't mean anything when you've got no one to tell them to, It's true...I was made for you." --- The Story, Brandi Carlisle A silo refers to a vertical storage system, usually for grain or such. In a silo, grain, for instance, is stored vertically in its own space, without being mixed or combined with oth
Jan 3110 min read
